Today's The Day

Well its finally here, the day I've worked and waited for ,  surgery day.  After  nearly 8 months, dozens of tests and appointments its finally my turn to go make it the OR.
Of course I've barely slept a wink, I think I laid down about midnight and here I sit at 4am.
I'm not scared, a little nervous maybe but that's surgery nerves, You know the thud you get in your stomach knowing they are going to put you to sleep to cut and poke and prod at you. But I just keep thinking of where I will (hope) be in a few weeks, months and at the end of this year.  Today might be a little uncomfortable, and the upcoming days will NOT be a walk in the park but I know in the end it will all be worth it. It will be worth it to not look at food as an enemy, to not cringe when a nurse says jump on the scale. It will be worth it to not feel uncomfortable in my own skin, to be a better healthier version of me and most of hell we have to admit the vanity of it all .... it will be worth it the first time I'm able to buy clothing and the size be only one letter of the alphabet or hell a single digit!!!
It will all be worth it!!!
Well time to jump in the shower and get Ernie moving we have to leave for the hospital in 45 minutes!! Today I say good bye to over weight Jen and hopefully this joke will be more funny than truth!!