This is just the beginning.....

So although this is not truly the beginning of my story it is the beginning of a scary journey I've set out on. I'm a 40 year old mom of twins. My boys are going to be turning 18 in April so as you might imagine I've been quite busy for the last couple of decades. But now that chapter is coming to a close.. No longer am I the maid, chef, tutor and chauffeur, now I'm just MOM! The boys have part time jobs, license and graduation is a few short months away and I've come to realize its my turn. Its finally come full circle and I can worry about and do for me now ... you know without any of that pesky mom guilt. So I've decided this is going to be my year .. my year of change and excitement. I decided to have bariatric surgery to reduce my ever expanding waist line. Please don't misunderstand this is not a decision I came to easily or a process that I'm taking lightly. I've been over weight since I was a young girl, but never like this. I'm not someone who can take care of this issue with sensible diet and exercise .. I NEED HELP! So the process has begun, I've had all my prerequisite appointments, gotten two thumbs up from a cardiologist, had a sleep study and ordered a CPAP machine to care for my fat girls sleep apnea and Monday I will charm the pants off of the Psychologist and I will be ready to rock and roll. That in a nutshell is the purpose of this blog. I want to keep a running record of my experience - my trial, tribulations and success. I wanted one central place where I could post my weight and pictures without too much public judgement. Although I'm not keeping my surgery a secret I'm certainly not posting it on a billboard. If someone I know well enough asks .... sure I'm gonna tell them .. but for those nosy bitches that just need a new topic of discussion .. no sorry you'll just have to be left wondering. So here we go!!! Today is Saturday January 14, 2014 I weigh 240.8 pounds - by my bathroom scale.

These pictures were taken so that I can see my progress - not exactly glamor shots!